He was stuck in my mind the whole day. I tried to get rid of the thought of him with success. He was just an ordinary guy, I told myself. Stop thinking about him! But that feeling I had earlier was still there. The butterflies were still bugging me!
At work, I hoped and prayed I would see him again. I needed to know what that feeling meant. No, it was more of a desire to know. Was it just a crush or was it something more? I was afraid to find out. I didn't like that thought at all.
There he is at the end of the hallway walking towards me. He knew I was there. He had his head down while striding across the hall. Yes, he was shy! My heart started pumping and was feeling excited. My stomach turned up side down. His head slowly stood up to catch my eye. A smile was across his face. What a beautiful sight! I had to smile back. As we both passed by in the opposite direction, he shyly said, "hi, musta?" and continued to walk. The smile was still on my face. I can't regret what just happened. I took a deep and long breath as I felt the biggest fear. There goes the answer to my question. That feeling I felt when I first met him was not a crush. Not even close! I think I'm in love with him. I was definitely sure it was 'love at first sight.' I knew it was too soon, but I couldn't help it. It is what it is!
I was suddenly shocked and frightened when the word love flew my mind. What do I do? Should I just ignore it? I've told myself so many times: Do not fall in love. Not yet! And there were reasons behind that. I was in college trying to pursue nursing. I had a goal. And I'm pretty sure my parents won't allow it. I totally ignored it! Love can wait!
By: Jane Pauline
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